Wow, so 5 finals down, 1 to go.... The reality of the end is ever increasing as I prepare for this last test of retainment in my Ephesians class tomorrow. It's crazy to think that in just a week I will be heading home. I'm excited for the break and ever growingly anxious to see what God is going to do with my life this summer. ....

You know, this is not what I had intended on writing when I sat down to pen this blog... But God is just impressing on my heart so much the truth that no matter how much pain it takes to learn what He has for you, it is always worth it...

I sit here, pondering the hardships of last semest, the trials of this and even on into my past beyond.... But it it is something like what Brenton taught me last semester... God was faithful throughout every tear, every hurt, every time I felt betrayed or lonely. If nothing else I have learned the faithfulness of God... But there is so much more...

Last semester with Patrick, I had to learn that it is so easy and so leathal to let friends become idols in my life. I had to learn what it truely meant to have my Jesus as my one and only... I had to learn the reality of what that looks like...

Further I had this semester, to learn so much about not being a kid anymore. I cannot afford to selfishly assign responsibility in a dispute to anyone... I am the bond slave of God, and I have no right to claim, no pride to own. My life exists for the glory of my Father and there simple is no room to allow disunity, as I mentioned in my other post. Further, I am called to be the peace maker...

Lessons like these took a broken heart to learn... It's unfortunately the way that God has to teach me for things to get through.

But my exhortation to ya'll is to simply reflect on this year, perhaps the past few, think of the hardest times that you have know and seek out that which God had to teach you through it.

So long my friends...
With love...
Because of His grace-
-Dave

Nearing the end... whats goin on

Well, the semester is ever growing to a close... As every time, it seems to have gone so fast. It's kinda crazy, looking out across the tables of the coffee shop at the faces that will soon be gone for good... Every time this seems so different... First semester I could barely take the goodbyes, I was wrecked for so long... Second semester, I suppose I had become more used to it, and I understood that it didn't always have to be the end. Now this semester's end draws nigh, and my emotion is, well something else... Sure there is the sadness, knowing that there is no one else to get away with anything on the excuse of 'I'm Calvin White!' There won't be the faces of so many of the 2 semesters I've come to know as they head away to extensions, nor the thirds that are heading out to Colorado, san Francisco and Italy.

So as everything is ending, I’m left considering that which I have learned, or have I really? There have been so many different things that I feel that God has been trying to show me this semester… The problem is, I am weak, I fail. The first among these things was that I need to learn to fall in love with my God. Jon Done said in Hebrews class that, “When you are passionately in love with someone, you cannot go two minutes into a conversation with an individual without that person coming up.” I was so convicted… How long does it take us to talk about the one who we claim as our father, our best friend and our Lord when we are in conversation? It doesn’t mean we are some socially retarded fanatic, but we need to decide what this faith which is supposed to and has every reason to be the most important thing in our lives is really worth. Someone once said that, “Until you find something worth dying for, you aren’t really living.” So the question that I poise to you is this… Do you…do I… Live our lives for God as if He is worth dying for? I could go my whole life without hearing another person tell me that they would die for their faith. Because if you won’t live for it then your death won’t mean a thing anyway… Just ponder it, we all need to spend time meditating on what we really live our lives like…

-Til next time…
Because of His Grace-
-Dave